Baby Body Blues

“Honey, you’re fine… you’ve just had a baby.  You look great.”

That’s the response I continuously get from my husband whenever I complain about my postpartum plumpness.  That’s an excuse I can only use for a certain amount of time, ya know.  This begs the question…after having a baby, how long can you go using the “I just had a baby” excuse before you’re just plain ol’ milking it for all it’s worth?  I’m sure everyone is different and answers will vary.

When I arrived home, 2 days after having Mia, I looked at myself in the mirror.  I mean, I looked at my naked self in the mirror.  I wasn’t sure what to expect.  I just stared for a minute before I began to feel the tears running down my face.  I had never felt more unattractive than at that moment.  Keep in mind, the hormones were surging which didn’t help matters.  I felt ruined.  I never had a great body image for myself before getting pregnant, and standing there with this new body looking back at me in the mirror made me feel hopeless in ever getting it back to the way it was, forget ever getting it better than before.  Instead of seeing a healthy and cozy home which was my child’s just days before, all I saw were new cellulite locations, a flabby and looser mid-section that jiggled for seconds longer after I laughed or coughed, and much wider hips and thighs, and a very flat rear end.  I don’t think I looked at myself naked again for another week or 2.  I almost wished for my pregnant belly back!  At least it was tight and firm.  I would have to wait 6 weeks for my scheduled doctor appointment to get the green light to start exercising again.

   Well, 6 weeks later, my doctor told me that my body was healed and I’m good to do whatever I want in the fitness department.  I was so excited to hear that, so excited that I went to the Rose Bowl (5 days later) and walked/jogged a full lap (3 miles) with Mia in her stroller.

I love running at the Rose Bowl

It felt great to get back to my favorite place to sweat and burn the fat.  There was a time (years ago) when I would wake up at 4am to run 2 laps (6 miles) around the Rose Bowl (without stopping), before work almost everyday!  I even once ran a whole flippin’ Marathon…ya, without stopping!  I completed it in 4 hours and 28 minutes, 2 minutes quicker than my goal time.

San Diego’s Rock n’ Roll Marathon 2009

I just completed my first marathon in 2009

I love to run, but I think my body has forgotten that since being pregnant.  When I went back to the Rose Bowl after my appt. a few weeks ago, I felt great after my walk, but I also realized how out of shape I really am.  It’s going to take  a lot of work to get back to the quick and determined runner that I used to be…and instead of being pumped up over that challenge, I feel more discouraged.  Because of this discouragement, I’ve only exercised one other time.  Can you believe that?  How lame! I’ve been using the “It’s so hot outside” excuse…which it has been, but I could have worked out early morning when it’s cooler.  Well, my recent workout was to a Taebo DVD in my living room (in my new shoes that Dom bought me).

  It was so tough, I was only able to get through 2/3 of it.  Even so, I was dripping with sweat.  Out…of…shape!!!

What’s even more discouraging? I start work again in 2 weeks, and hardly any of my clothes fit me!  Because of this, I’m going to try really hard to do SOME kind of physical activity each day, even if it’s only some sit-ups and push-ups.  That’s better than nothing.  I’m currently 9 lbs heavier than I was when I first got pregnant.  That sounds like an easy weight-loss goal to accomplish, BUT, I was about 10 lbs heavier than my “normal” weight when I first became pregnant.  So that’s a whopping 19 lbs to lose until I’m back at my running days weight…seen below.  I want to wear a bikini again.

Getting some Las Vegas sun…maybe 3 years ago?

and seen here…when I was hiking a lot…

  I’ll keep ya posted on any weight lost. These last 2 photos will hopefully give me some motivation. Wish me luck!  There’s probably 40 dresses or so and 20 pairs of jeans that are currently collecting dust in my closet.  What a shame it would be for all of them to go to waste…because of my waistline.

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Comments

  1. Chrysytna says

    I hear you! I weigh more now than I did AFTER I had Mac. Something sounds really wrong with that sentence. I dropped my pregnancy weight quick and kept it off until she was probably a year old. Then I got caught up in being a Mom and stopped taking care of me. Have you tried yoga? That's what I just started almost 2 mo's ago and it's helping. Seems like it's bringing in the massive width in the hips that this child of mine caused. Just thought I'd throw that out there. There are lots of quick videos I've pinned on Pinterest that you can do at home ;)

    • You know, I've never really given Yoga a chance but I've always heard really great things about it. I'm pretty sure I have some home workouts but they're on VHS!!! When we moved, we ditched the VHS player and so now I've got to order some workout DVDs. I've only got the ONE Taebo DVD you see in the post…and I don't feel like doing the same thing each time. Thanks for the tip.

  2. I didn't put on much weight during my pregnancy, it was just me with a bump, but I remember after I had my daughter my stomach! I'd never seen anything like it in my life, and I was frankly horrified. I remember a few months after having my daughter crying my eyes out on the phone to my friend over my body that would never be the same again. But 2 years on, I quite frankly don't even give it a second thought any more. My body is the same as it was when I made that phone call but I am content with it now. Sure I have marks of having a baby, but I am the happiest I have ever been with my body. I think I just made peace with myself somewhere along the way. The greatest advice I ever heard was this: "look at your thumb, look long and hard at it, it's just a thumb… that's how others see your body, they don't see the flaws you see, they just see a thumb" lol. That always made me feel better

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    • Oh, so you were one of THOSE women, huh? The ones us whales all gawk at with jealous eyes? Yeah I don't feel like I gained too much weight. I was pretty content with 28 lbs, and 20 of them came right off by the time I got home 2 days after my baby was born. I'm not ready to make peace with my new body just yet, not without giving this whole get-back-into-shape thing a real shot and putting some genuine work into it. If all else fails in the end, THEN we'll talk about acceptance :) And I LOVE the thumb advice! What a simple and funny way to look at the situation. Thanks for sharing.

  3. Anonymous says

    Don't worry Misty the weight will still keep coming off slowly. I had like 5lbs in my midsection that was flabby etc and without doing anything at about 6-9 months was almost completely gone. I thought for sure I would have to actually diet and exercise to get off and tight but I did nothing and it finally was all gone for sure at 1 year. Back to pre baby weight. I might be lucky but I think that your body still shrinks for months. I was lucky I didn't have to be in a bathing suit for a year since I had him in the summer :)

    • Yeah, I just bought a one-piece the other day because I won't be diving into my big drawer of bikinis any time soon. Rats. The thing is, I LIKE to be active and to run and exercise…it's just getting back into that lifestyle is so tough when you're used to taking it easy during pregnancy. Thanks for sharing and for the extra encouragement.

  4. LOVE the shoes!!!!!!! I'm addicted to them!!!! I'm always up for a hike or anything love so let me know if you want some motivational company!!! :) (well.. as soon as my foot heals) :) And I agree.. it took 9 months to gain the weight so give yourself some leeway.. :) xo

    • I want to eat a whole gallon of ice cream when I think about how it just may take me 9 months to get back into shape! Blah! And Dom and I just went for a walk/jog around the Rose Bowl last night and i wore these shoes. Um..OUCH! I've got blisters on both heels and a blister-feeling big toe :(

  5. Don't be so hard on yourself it's only been a few weeks… You had whole 9 months to bake that bun so my logic is telling me you will get your beach body back in another 9 months just keep up with the good work. Baby and husband will be proud of you :)

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    • The hardest part for me right now, and I'm sure a lot of new moms, is snapping out of that lazy, who cares what I eat, kick back with my feet up, mentality that we are allowed to have when we are pregnant. Thanks for the pep talk :)

  6. Anonymous says

    Good luck momma! I've lost 12 lbs in the last 2 months on nutrisystem but I'm totally over it. I have 13 lbs to go to get back to pre-preggo size. I just keep telling myself that since my last doctor appointment before having Abby, I've lost 30 lbs!… A lot of that was baby and fluids but it still makes me feel better! They say it takes 9 months for your shape to change during pregnancy and it takes 9 months to get back to normal. I say baby weight sucks!

    • you're over it? 12 lbs is awesome, way to go! and i guess technically i've lost 20 lbs since becoming pregnant, but 8 of that is currently sleeping in her swing :) we'll get there…hopefully NOT in 9 months! I'll miss all the summer fun.

      • Anonymous says

        Im over Nutrisystem. I like real food too much and it's pretty expensive. Astronaut food isnt cutting it! Gonna try high protein/low carb for awhile or maybe switch to weight watchers.

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